A "New" me?

So I spent last week thinking about changing my looks and crap. (I have to sit and giggle at myself) I talked to my friend Robin who is sporting the whole "frohawk" which I know for a fact I can't do.  Somehow the conversation tangented to Adam Lambert. I remember only seeing this guy during the tryouts for California. And I almost had hair similiar to this. So I was like... why not take a chance. 

So I started looking around for "emo" or "punk" or "rocker" styles. I mostly ended up with ALOT of tests of "Would you date a rocker/emo guy?" blah blah blah. I was kinda over it. I think I was really over the skinny pants. I'm "moderately" (ahem) skinny so I don't think that wearing skinny pants would do anything for me except... make me even skinnier. Cause I always wanted to go through life hyper-anorexic or looking close to it.

I looked some more and thought around and I took this test on Facebook. Which I'm sure you guys saw. It was the SocialLiving application where it was to choose 5 things on a topic that relate to you.

 

Not really a quiz but... w/e it was a time waster right? So I picked the 5 celebrities born on your birthday. 

Hey lookie I was born on the same day as Superman. And his hair looks kinda cool. Time to zoom in. Not too shabby. I think I can sport that hairstyle. Well attempt anyways. So I got my hair trimmed and textured so that when it grows out "hopefully" it'll look something similiar. Still gotta go for the rest of my looks. But thats for another day. =) 

Strengths Finder 2.0

(taken verbatim from the book sleeve of this book)

Do you have the opportunity to do what you do best every day?

Chances are, you don't. All too often, our natural talents go untapped. From the cradle to the cubicle, we devote more time to fixing our shortcomings than to developing our strengths.

To help people uncover their talents, Gallup introduced the first version of its online assessment, StrengthsFinder, in the 2001 management book Now, Discover Your Strengths. The book spent more than five years on the bestseller lists and ignited a global conversation, while StrengthsFinder helped millions to discover their Top 5 talents.

I was compelled to take this test because my church hosted a seminar of this topic last weekend. I headed down from Sacramento in the morning instead of my usual Friday night. I didn't catch this seminar to my dismay but my Pastor who was leading worship practice that day went and he was on fire.

I really wanted to do this assessment. Curiously. I have already done with my counselor at Sac State several assessments already. Who would have known that the answer to some of my inquisitiveness related to the results of this test. Unfortunately I was unable to get the book when I wanted to as I'm only getting paid on the 30th of each month. My mother gave me and advance, so I was able to pick it up on Tuesday.

Herein are my top 5 themes:

Futuristic
People who are especially talented in the Futuristic theme are inspired by the future and what could be. They inspire others with their visions of the future.

Input
People who are especially talented in the Input theme have a craving to know more. Often they like to collect and archive all kinds of information.

Belief
People who are especially talented in the Belief theme have certain core values that are unchanging. Out of these values emerges a defined purpose for their life.

Intellection
People who are especially talented in the Intellection theme are characterized by their intellectual activity. They are introspective and appreciate intellectual discussions.

Empathy
People who are especially talented in the Empathy theme can sense the feelings of other people by imagining themselves in others’ lives or others’ situations.

I spent the rest of this week reading about each type of theme and finding things I was supposed to do. I'm not sure if I totally agree with everything but it does sound like me. Time to break it down from my point of view:

Futuristic: I was never one to think that far into the future. Then again I cannot go on daily life without a plan of what will be in store of me. Sometimes this can come across as thinking too much about the future. I also see this as a motivator capacity. With having insight towards the future and seeing the possibilities of how things can/should happen I should be a dreamer. Actually I don't really dream. It's kind of funny.

Input: Input relates to information. I have always had some inkering to know more about everything. Once my attention is drawn however. If it relates to my own personal ideals then I will focus on that theme. However my focus is limited as I'm finding out. This semester is a prime example because of the thought of finding out more of myself through assessments, friends' opinions, self thought... It's almost an obsession. Also I believe my packratiness comes from this as well hehe

Belief: This shows my unchanging values. One thing I have to thank my parents for. I am very strong in my beliefs regardless of whom I know associates with a particular belief I don't stand by. I will respect those of different ideals yet based on myself I won't falter from my own set of ideals. Some may call this stubborness. I'm happy to know that I carry within myself a strong support and those that meet me or associate themselves with me will feel my set of beliefs and it will either catalize them or deter them.

Intellection: I knew I was an intellectual from the beginning. The funny thing about this, is that I'm the laziness intellectual person ever. If given a chance to debate a topic, I will not go empty handed. I do have this childlike curiosity to know and understand the things around me. Reading helps in this department too, and for myself I believe writing has a gigantic impact on my intellection. Mostly because my greatest fan is a piece of paper. =)

Empathy: I knew this would pop up one way or another. I am beginning to realize my ability to empathisize with others more and more as this semester goes by. It kind of goes with the counseling conversations I have with others. I can feel how things will happen and if something is not right. Unfortunately I lack the ability to intervene which is one task this book has challenged me.

Overall I enjoyed this assessment of myself and will not hesitate for those readers who are curious of their place in life, feel like they are stuck doing something they don't want to do, feel like they are settling too soon for their own good, want to see a change I highly suggest this book. It will change you and make you realize your potential. It's true that society has this innate ability to make us feel unworthy or incapable because of our weaknesses in life. The backbone of this book is to not focus on your weaknesses but to realize your strengths. Not saying you should run from every challenge but to understand where your shortcomings are. Try it. You may be changed. I know I am

The Beginning of the End

So I resurrected my blog here on blogspot. The last time I touched this was back in 2004. I used to have this blog to complain about the days events and what not. I think I still have a livejournal with all of those as well. This will probably be a "lets catch up" entry because there has been alot of stuff occurring.

For one thing, this blog used to contain songs and/or poems that I wrote when I was a "wee lad" heh. I took those this morning and exported them in xml format to my harddrive and I hope that it'll stay there. Tho everytime I look at them and want to vomit, it's still nice to have on hand in case my vomiting gets under control and I can actually do something with them.

I've been challenged recently to write more. More like in February. That was a pivitol month for me. I came to realize my calling was not where I thought it was. Then again that is life. I started writing a book about myself. It somehow turned into a comedy. Then again thats me lol. It was my story because there are alot of you that don't know it. Hell, I didn't know it when I started writing. Alas it is a forever work in progress. I'll get back into it. I hope. Maybe this blogspot will help.

I realized that there are some major tidbits I was missing from my life and basically been a walking emptyness devoid of emotion and feeling. There wasn't a real sense of excitement emanating from me. Just a cold fake presence. Thats what I projected. At least tried to not project but I think it came out eventually. There was no sense of joy fulfillment or steadfast self appreciation. 

It's hard to write this write now because of the new changes that have been occurring to me... BAH I'll make another post I suppose.

Here is the last few months in short: Met with a career counselor, Did the MBTI test, Strong Interest Inventory Test, an Exercise called "Be a Cat", and Holland's 6 themes. 

It has been good for me. I am starting to realize where I'm at and what I'm good for. The self appreciation is growing but there is still more to attain. Thanks for the read guys. I'll be writing alot more. (my blog is empty!!!)