The Beginning of the End

So I resurrected my blog here on blogspot. The last time I touched this was back in 2004. I used to have this blog to complain about the days events and what not. I think I still have a livejournal with all of those as well. This will probably be a "lets catch up" entry because there has been alot of stuff occurring.

For one thing, this blog used to contain songs and/or poems that I wrote when I was a "wee lad" heh. I took those this morning and exported them in xml format to my harddrive and I hope that it'll stay there. Tho everytime I look at them and want to vomit, it's still nice to have on hand in case my vomiting gets under control and I can actually do something with them.

I've been challenged recently to write more. More like in February. That was a pivitol month for me. I came to realize my calling was not where I thought it was. Then again that is life. I started writing a book about myself. It somehow turned into a comedy. Then again thats me lol. It was my story because there are alot of you that don't know it. Hell, I didn't know it when I started writing. Alas it is a forever work in progress. I'll get back into it. I hope. Maybe this blogspot will help.

I realized that there are some major tidbits I was missing from my life and basically been a walking emptyness devoid of emotion and feeling. There wasn't a real sense of excitement emanating from me. Just a cold fake presence. Thats what I projected. At least tried to not project but I think it came out eventually. There was no sense of joy fulfillment or steadfast self appreciation. 

It's hard to write this write now because of the new changes that have been occurring to me... BAH I'll make another post I suppose.

Here is the last few months in short: Met with a career counselor, Did the MBTI test, Strong Interest Inventory Test, an Exercise called "Be a Cat", and Holland's 6 themes. 

It has been good for me. I am starting to realize where I'm at and what I'm good for. The self appreciation is growing but there is still more to attain. Thanks for the read guys. I'll be writing alot more. (my blog is empty!!!)