missing

why can't i stop thinking about you
we didn't part at the best of times
we didn't have the best of times
but you linger in my mind and in my heart

the soft hair upon my chest, tickling my chin
sighing contentedly as we sat.
breathing and sitting, breathing and sitting
eyes closed, not a single care in the world

you tilted your head to look at me
said those three words, i hoped you wouldn't
everything froze. I held you tighter, but
not a word could come from my voice

i feigned foolery to readjust, i wasn't ready
don't think i'll ever fully be. and now
i'm left holding a pillow at night
missing you, and telling myself what a fool i've been.